dear diary,
i don't know why i'm writing this. i don't know whether people will read this. i don't even know what i'm doing. i just thought that i need to do this. i need to let it out.
I NEED PEOPLE TO LOOK AT ME.
nothing special in my life. i have a family. a dad, a mum, a sister. We are not exactly 'a happily ever after' type of family, but we're not the worst. i'm still a college student, currently doing my internship. nothing great.i hate my job. i hate my current habitants. i hate my fucking landlord.
Probably the best things that ever happened to me are my friends, and this one particular girl - Dianne. For me, she's what every guy would ask for. Beautiful, cute, innocent, adorable, naughty, 40% angel, 60% devil. sometimes i don't even think that i deserve her. Just like in the movie "she's out of my league", she really is out of my league.
Then again, like most of us losers says, life is terribly unfair. but hey, at least i'm living my life. Just to comfort myself, i would say to myself "hey aaron, it's ok. there are other people who are more shittier than me. U should be grateful".
Such Ignorance. Actually what i meant to say was, "I HATE MY FUCKING JOB!"
currently i'm doing my internship at this small company, which only have 7 employee in it. the pay was ok, but the job is killing me! staying late night at the office is my usual routine, and intense pressure is what i dealt everyday. luckily i have some nice colleagues, though i hate some of them (office politics, if you know what i mean).
every week, i would run off to the big city just to cool my head off. Usually i went to KL to meet Dianne, but she had plans with her girlfriends this weekend. As for me, i went to see my dad, whom i supposed to met last weekend, but i couldn't because i was celebrating my birthday party, which my dad will kill me if he knows.
So i went to my dad's apartment with my sis, with the help of her boyfriend/fiance. But today, something which i rarely saw occur. My sis was having a fight with her boyfriend! Normally, they would look so lovey-dovey and mushey-mushey and whatever, but tonight i just saw my sis bursting out mad at him. And that situation suddenly made me uncomfortable. so silence was in the air, for the first time. Luckily after arriving at my dad's place, the silence broke down.
Later that night, my sis was rambling about his boyfriend, and out of rage, she quote to me:
"What's up with guys?sometimes they got moody out of nowhere.And sometimes i feet that he's not ready yet to marry me."
Then i turned silent. This conversation is too mature for me. "Sometimes they got moody?" And here i thought the same thing when Dianne got moody. The thing is sis, a guy will never understand a girl, and vice versa. That's what make us attracted to each other.
If you want a person who can understand you, then be a lesbo, or a homo.
